Soul

What is the soul of this place? Gaia earth, the cosmos creature. In comic books, in culture… we create space for performance and the Asheville way… 

I wake up and tend the inner and outer gardens.

I tend the world, as all are my body.

Patience and presence are my keys.

Step by step I walk a path.

Breathing the rhythms of light.

A clear picture of who I best am will yield the best results in deep contentment.

A clear picture of the world and how it is will also yield the best results in terms of acceptance.

We live in a space of common, hard realities and of dense, creative mindstuff and of clear spirit all overlapping.

I know that when I work landscaping I am not stacking my functions as well as I could.

The narratives of our life and of culture as it unrolls are dense playgrounds of care for me.

how can I bring pollinators, city design, honey, fruits, herbs, medicine, healing, tea -- into awareness. Into acceptance.

into the flow of funding and awareness.

The clarity or clear space to hear spirit -- to feel spirit -- to know spirit -- so see spirit -- to sense spirit -- to dream spirit -- to listen more deeply... all of these are so important.

I know the world is riddled with many dense dreams.

How tempting to see them all as competing -- the fundamentalists, the essentialisms. The flow-goddesses, the hard-workers, the philosophers -- the anarchist fighters. Reactionary progressives. The allowing wealth holders.

Sarah moves into realms of "drawing the wealth" .

I must learn how to communicate effectively with the powers of wealth and change. Connections. Clarity. Presence. Intention.

Production of performance. I know what needs to be done.

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A blue marble. Swallowed by a spider. Ingested by a spider mother, white and beautiful.

She spins in the night. A million stars her body.

She is on a rope. She is jumping rope  - a little girl. She is a little black girl jumping rope, long braided heair. Maybe ten years old. Jumping rope. She is in a concrete playground.

She is older. She is in a forest, wild, well-presented. Drumming -- Pull Back -- drummin ina circle of friends. We see the circle. It is mostly other chocolate- and dark-sking-colored girls, women, irish. Corrinna Wood. Drumming. Wild. Lena Eastes. Drumming. Fires burning from the inipi. Smoke pouring out we can see the smoke pouring out.

Above the inipi structure the sun rises. We are flying above the earth - surfing the wave of the wind - like the weather. (skill up on the weather. ) We are the wind-cloud-being. The original Wind cloud dragon being spirit deva force consciousness animism. We are the Wind - see it soaring above the earth -- whole creature soaring above the earth.

We see the wind-creature. We zoom in on Her-it-hem-zem. Inside are a million dust-motes of pollen. She it zem is pollinating the pines. The motes of pollen dance in the wind.

We enter a pollination fable.

Two humans dance on the outside of the set. Man and woman, far apart on opposite ends.

Man and man. All the Males release their pollen simultaneously.

woman and Woman. All the Flowers bloom at once --- pistils open and ready, plump and ripe.

One beautiful Man -- Plant in flower, male flowered-plant in flower.

One regular man and woman - catkins and wind. Whispering on the wind. messaging and speaking.



When the pollens get together. - It is a conversation. Pollen and Egg, Seed and seed - inside the seeds - a conversation.

We pull out. We are in a coffee house. Across a table, two people. Conversation. Talking. Coversation.

Inside her belly -- a child grows -- and dies. So it is. We pull back out: Conversation.

The seeding of things.

Our mind-stuff -- interacting. Show a flow of energy. Pollenating, pollen clouds in a wind.

In a wind.

Wind creature, flying across the earth. Full of dusts. Full of dusts.

Earth. A blue marble. The spider-mother: spits it back out.

I need to produce the Bees. A production company. Art house production. Need to have an ally.
Need to produce the bees: and possibly the Water.

Need a trout: White squirrel Festival.

Spring-summer-autumn. Pretty big but can I do it -- while tending website, production company. Produce to evolve the politics? How can that be integrated. Maybe Gabi can be featured on the speaking circuit. Maybe I can produce Gabi as a speaker. Maybe we can perform together.

While perhaps narrating this as an album: practicing with the Appalachian Winter recordings.

Practicing with them.

I need four mornings like this to design and run story for the: Bees story; White Squirrel; Water Blessings; .

One more to run script for the Appalachian Winter;

and a weekend to record the narrative tracks for-with Thomas in the Home Studio.

A meeting with Sabio to review this idea; and ask him how he balances Finances with Creative Work;

A day or two to start with the Production Company business; and work with Brenda's suggestions.

Two days to do taxes;

Four days to work on the Funeral Home design and work with Keith on that;

Half a day to get the tree for the Fortini clinic;

Two days to network and design the Fortini clinic / Resnick pollinator garden and certification qualifications for that space -- three more days to promote and advertise that site

ANDOR A SHIFT OUT OF THAT WORK INTO THE WORK OF FUNDING AND PROMOTING BUSINESSES AND FACILITATING POSITIVE CHANGE IN THE WORLD  but that's what I'm already doing.

A minute to discuss the "community conversations" we can roll out as "Mycelium School" around place, identity, greater cultural visioning -- With Ashley, Mattice, Jen...

A day to hang with Muse and once-a-week on a date with someone...

Emmalee as my Love love love and Daniel, and Always my friends.

And perhaps we just go Busk for Fun!!!

A place I dance surrounded by Pine.

There's a place I dance in the woods north of my house. Carpeted in Pine, ceilinged by tall trees. and when I dance, and my dancing in my heart, or in the air? The dance is here and there. Thanks to the creatures who love me, laugh with me, and help me on my way. 

Reflections on a considered life and the bioregional sun

Living a life – a well considered life – results in meaning and purpose, joy and gratitude for me as an artist and as a living being.

To truly look at where we live – the interconnectedness, the gifts of our Southern Appalachian mountains, the abundant water, the tree people, who give us beauty as well as so many goods – to see the cultures here, to know the animals and the medicine, the natural foods, the ways we can best build in order to support abundant, clean energy and healthy living, and to truly look at ourselves – to truly look at myself – what I'm good at, how I show up in the world, what people love and appreciate about me – where I feel strong and useful, beautiful and appreciated – where I love working, how I love working even if it's contrary to what I grew up being told, or to what I believed about myself even – and then to put the two together and begin looking at how we can build a life it's cleaner for the planet, healthier for human beings and all beings on this planet…To look at what wonderful things we could be creating as a part of this big earth that we live on together with so many different people… To honor the different cultures around us, human, animal, ecological, and also to honor the unknown, the mystery, God's will, the divine that we don't always anticipate or understand. All of this is so important to bring together – both for my close circle of loved ones, like the people I'm working on with this play – and the greater community of people because we all live together on this planet. We are all interconnected and effect each other everything we do affects each other. And there's a lot of strife, difficulty communicating – a lot of challenges because we are different people and we communicate differently and have different levels of understanding about things. But the work we are all doing is important – if it's considered work – if it's in line with our understanding of God's will – if it's work that we have reflected on and considered. I believe in it more if you too have considered it prayed on it and yourself believe in it. If you really understand what it is to do meaningful work. And this is the way to build a new beautiful old patchwork culture like a quilt we are creating with God and everyone else that has all creatures and things all beauty all good dreams Inside of it as possibilities.

And I hope through this work that I discover and skill up on the ways I show up best in the world in accordance with my own highest vision that I've been talking about here.

Clouds on the Mountain

Bioregional Sun

Immersed in the Feminine

Clouds blow through like the ghosts of Pioneers. 

I wend my way forward, knowing what my Masculine Sun lives for; knowing what my feminine Soul nourishes within. 

Foundation, eros, heartsong, and thought-mind. One being, true. My seeds fall for You. Namaste. 

IF I HAD A DAY, Mama

IF I HAD A DAY

If I had a day Mama,

I’d tell you I loved you

I’d tell L___ I sure couldn’t meet him for dinner,

I’d stretch my body out really really well - to feel good

I’d watch the dawn

I’d tell you sometimes I’m clueless, Mama,

sometimes I’m clueless,

But I’ve had a good life,

I’ve had a really good life, Mama,

If I had a day.

IF I HAD A YEAR, MAMA,

If I had a year,

I’d produce the best ever seasonal blessings

the world’s ever seen.

I’d bless this place, Mama,

I’d really give this to people, Mama --

I’d give it my everything,

If I had a year.

IF I HAD FIVE YEARS, MAMA,

If I had five years,

I’d take some birds under my wing, mama,

I’d take some birds under my wing,

and I’d show them how to live really well, Mama,

in a beautiful place,

in an Earth we share, Mama.

I see land and country, dawns, soil rich with frost, heaving rich, Mama

If I had five years.

IF I HAD TEN YEARS, MAMA,

If I had ten years,

I’d have a child, Mama -

Just for the experience, I’d have a child

with a woman, and be there for the birth,

I’d have a child, Mama,

If I had ten years.

IF I HAD TWENTY YEARS, MAMA --

If I had twenty years,

I’d make my whole family about our purpose --

As a family, we would lift something up in the world --

something together, we’d lift it up, something bigger than me.

IF I HAD FIFTY YEARS, MAMA --

-- And I do have fifty years --

If I had fifty years,

i don’t know what I’d do.

I’d give it all back, Mama --

I’d give it all away,

I’d give it all back to You, Mama. I’d give it back to you.