S—,
I’ve been giving it some thought, and determined that what
I’m truly good at is networking, communications, listening, aesthetic digital
design, research, understanding systems, personal and interpersonal guidance
and imparting knowledge, copy (or writing), language, lyricism and verse,
melody and song, spiritual presence, enthusiasm and connection, group
leadership, initiative and startup energy, management,
blogging-observation-and-reflection, brainstorming, activism and political
causes, clerical organization, group
presentations, public speaking, contemplation and reflection, storytelling,
imparting a sense of wonder and reflection, movement, dance, athleticism,
theatrical interpretation, improvisation, negotiation, diplomacy, presence,
empathy, intuition, and rapport.
I am a great lover of nature, mythology, and the psyche, and
of cultural and ecological literacy towards liberation and clarity, resilient
futures, and the alleviation of suffering.
When I do physical work – which I like to do – I am best in modest
increments and need to be well-fed. Two three-hour blocks of time are the
comfortable limits of my body and being, three days a week being by preferred
limit at that amount of labor. Of course
that needs support from organization, uniform (clothing for hard dirty work),
hygene, nutritious meals preparation and grocery shopping, administration and
invoicing, design (minimal but still needed), planning, client interface and
communications, purchasing of materials and maintenance of tools, truck, and of
self-care such as yoga, massage and medicine.
When properly fueled and rolling, I can accomplish a lot of
physical work in a small amount of time, but I tend to become exhausted if I
work fast, but bored if I work slowly.
My challenges are memorization (I have to make lists and
organize them), steady, ongoing, heavy physical labor (I get bored, exhausted, and
my body is not particularly stocky, plus my joints hurt), logistics (e.g. best-guessing
multiple possible spatial-temporal events ahead of time). I also have several
personal projects that I want to devote time to, and believe in, but that do
not earn much money as of yet and that is always a challenge in terms of what
to give my time and energy to.
If I had my d’ruthers I would be doing performance
production, along with land-and-soil-based permaculture manifestation on
personal property, along with a supplemental income doing counseling,
workshops, or teaching. On top of that I am manic to somehow continue to
produce songs and work with musical production, as well as be politically
active towards positive bioregional futures. When I don’t feel like I have the
resources to do all that, I get short of breath, and that possibility leaves me
feeling despondent and exhausted. But I will somehow roll them all in, and if I
succeed I believe I will have a sense of living my purpose on Earth that will
be so deeply satisfying that I will die a happy man. May it come to pass and
let it be true.
